Security in Christ

I've been doing this really great book/ Bible study with my friends recently. We started reading the book So Long Insecurity: You've been a bad friend to us by Beth Moore in early February. To be completely honest, I knew I had some issues to work through, but the deeper I get into the book, I find more and more insecurity issues. I have realized that I have been masking them under different names or clustering one particular issue with another. Since these additional issues have been brought to my attention, God has been all over me! It first started with the book then He threw in some verses from my quiet time. The next thing I know, He starts sending messages- like they were made for my eyes only- via email of daily devotions sent to my BlackBerry. It was sooo eerie reading something in the book one evening, pondering it over at night, to wake up to a devotion that gives me some insight into the SAME THING the next morning. He's been leading me down this particular path the last week or so. He started with reminding me that I must choose Him everyday; I will find my strength in Him alone, but I must go to Him to gather what I need (like manna in the desert). Then He reminded me that my old self is gone and dead and that He lives in me now so I must change my thinking to be like His thinking, my thoughts to be like His. No more thinking bad things about myself; I am a new creation. To renew my mind so I no longer follow the pattern of this world. When I had these emails pop up, I really just chucked it up to a subtle reminder from God. He has other things in mind.

I finished reading a couple chapters in my book that really opened my eyes. The first had story after story about times when women let insecurity get the best of them. It really hit home for me because I saw myself in so many of the reactions. Then came the chapter about our God given dignity. I read through it and didn't think much of it until I went to the blog that Beth set up to discuss the book. Each week we read a couple of chapters and then answer some questions. The final question that Beth posted last week was about what we think dignity is. I realized then (and posted as such) that I didn't really have much of an idea of what it is or how I would show it (to be honest, I don't think I have too much currently, I don't seem that dignified to myself, anyway). I didn't think too deeply into dignity, only to figure that God will show me what is to Him and help me to experience it in my life in due time. Well due time began the next morning. I have a short quiet time over breakfast while reading the daily devotionals that are sent to my BB. Lo and behold- one of the devotionals is entitled "Becoming a Woman of Dignity". The writer then quotes the EXACT SAME SCRIPTURE THAT BETH USED in the book that I read the day before. Only this author tells what dignity is to her. It sent chills up my spine. Barley 12 hours before, I was posting a comment to a blog about how I didn't really know/ understand dignity and here God was showing me. It left me speechless. And slightly apprehensive about the future. I have no idea what He's got in store, but I know He is working on me as I write. Thankfully, I can trust Him; His will be done.