Amazing things. That's what He's been doing for me. Healing me from the inside out. With a tough weekend ahead of me I went for a double header at yoga on Thursday night. It was a wonderful time that I got to spend with friends and in prayer and meditation. I had a traditional vini yoga class first that where we pushed ourselves and each other while learning some new things about down-dog. Heather was so proud of my Chattaronga Dindasana (?sp). It's an advanced yoga pose where you begin in a push up position (at the top of the push up) and then slowly lower yourself down to the floor as far as you can and hold it. We've only tried it in class a few times because it is so difficult and in the past I've only been able to lower myself down a couple of inches. Not yesterday. Through the work of yoga, regular push ups, and CrossFit training, I am now able to lower myself just to the point where my nose is about to touch the floor. And remain there. Heather was floored that I was able to lower myself with such control, since she has known my struggle with upper body strength. Needless to say, we had a small celebration in class.
After the first class was over, we waited for the yogi's to show up for the second class, the restorative and meditation class. No one else showed up, so it was just me and Heather. Thankfully, I was able to get Heather to practice with me (she has been going through a rough time on her own and needed the practice bad). It was a wonderful time of deep relaxation and prayer with God, both of which I needed badly.
Through my time of prayer, God showed me the most beautiful image. I have been struggling with some issues from my past that always seem to creep and gang up on me this time of year. Memories that I have trouble "putting behind me and straining forward to what lies ahead". Yesterday, I came to yoga seeking restoration and healing; and that's exactly what I got. God began by replaying images of my past as if He were showing me a movie. Strangely, when the images flashed before me, I no longer felt the hurt feelings that I have before. When the images were over, He showed me a picture of myself, lying down in a beautiful white garment. Leaving from my heart was a series of little white hearts, some large and some small, others where medium sized. They left my heart in a row, each coming from my heart one at a time. I knew instantly those were the feelings that I have been dealing with. The hearts then floated away gently, like they were on a breeze and drifted through the sky into space. God then spoke to my heart and told me that He was taking them away and placing them on an island far away. I then saw the hearts float through the universe to another planet and then onto a beautiful tropical island, more beautiful then I could have ever imagined with my own mind. Palm trees, white sand, with the most crystal clear blue ocean water ever. Then God told me that I couldn't have the hearts back because they belonged to Him. He said He took them when He died for me on the cross and He won't let me have them back; they were His. I was at such peace then, knowing that the feelings that have been plaguing me for so long are going to be taken care of by God Himself. Oh what a wonderful God I serve. With the image over, God then comforted me with His Word. During my time of meditation, scriptures came flooding back to my mind. He is the Great Reminder because many of these scriptures I have not committed to memory, but He recalled them back to the forefront of my mind. Comforting me with their strength and power. Praise be to God that He is the Divine Healer. Breaking me free of bondage and healing my deepest wounds. I have not felt the same since. I have a peace about me, a lightness to my body. Praise God.
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